Mischief in Overdrive

I’m practicing my positive thinking. I don’t do nearly enough of that.

Tomorrow will be the day we find our house. I know it. Well, I don’t *know* it, but I do believe in positive energy making things happen. I read a lot of Norman Vincent Peale as a child (my mum had a shelf full of his books), and I have to believe that it’s not all bunk…why would someone spend time writing a bunch of books full of crap?

So I’m going to try it out…tomorrow *will* be the day we find a house. Let’s see how *this* goes…

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…that I am making a huge fucking mistake.

I’ve been told that it’s normal to second-guess myself sometimes. The feeling that I have, that right around the corner is a Hammer of Impending Doom? Oh, that’s just par for the course, and that feeling will pass. Right?

I have felt like this since the first of the year, and recent events have not really improved matters. We still haven’t found a house, I still haven’t gone back to school, I still feel like a deadbeat, and to top it all off, personal issues that I thought were resolved have come back to bite me in the hiney, letting me know that they have *not* been dealt with the way they should have been. I’m an emotional mess right now, in a similar way to the months before B-chan was born.

At least I can recognise my mental state for what it is, which is a vast improvement over last time. I’m looking for a therapist to go back to…snaps to me for being (kind of) proactive. Not that I want to talk…I just kind of want to keep everything bottled up (reason #173 why this journal has lain dormant). But forcing myself to talk is good, right? Only good things can come of spilling my guts to someone for $20 an hour, right?

I’ll take “Exercise in Futility” for $1000, Alex.

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It would figure that, as soon as I make a post saying that I’m back, my clan and I end up moving. Server goes down, we go to Toledo, and the websites go poof for, like, two weeks. Even after everything was up and running again, I didn’t really feel like using the space that was allocated to me. Haven’t really had anything much to say, other than that we’re still looking for an edifice in which to live. I’m rather surprised at how much not having a place of my own has bothered me; I knew not having my own space would bother me, but it’s not like I had much space to call my own anyhow, living with two other adults. And so, 2010 will find us living with Leesa’s parents, and busting our humps to find a house before that lovely tax credit evaporates.

So, yeah…I’m really back now. Ain’t that grand.

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I wouldn’t normally choose to write a blog post using my comparatively-new G1, but I didn’t want to bring my laptop to bed with me. And so, I thought, why not use my mini computer? Yeah, technology kicks ass, as does the WP to Go app. As if that weren’t cool enough, I’m listening to my favourite local news/talk station, also on my phone. Oh, I’m in geek heaven. It really is the simple things that make life nice.

Nighttime is usually my time to relax, chill out, unwind. As the end of our time in this particular domicile draws to a close, however, my evenings have become consumed with packing our life away into labelled boxes. I was hoping for us to have a house to move into come December 1, and we’re close…

Kind of…

At least we’re getting out of here. The end of November is also being made nicer by an impending trip to TOL. It’s been three months since I was last in town, and I can’t wait to see Dave everyone again. It’s also been a year since I saw Jeremy…a year in which I have had ample time to get over him. Mission accomplished, yo.

Let’s see, what else…I’m contemplating starting a business after the new year, selling my cheesecakes. I dunno; some people around here seem to think that my cheesecakes could actually sell. Could be interesting, or could be a disaster. It’ll be fun, though, that much I do know.

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I’m baaaaaack…

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